Only 3% of women say they never lie - could they also be bending the truth? http://dairylies.blogspirit.com/d/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 19:41:59 +0800 All Rights Reserved http://dairylies.blogspirit.com/archive/2007/06/28/guilty-party.html http://dairylies.blogspirit.com/archive/2007/06/28/guilty-party.html noreply@blogspirit.com (Celine) D Thu, 28 Jun 2007 16:55:00 +0800 Dear Diary<br /><br />D was my older lover in his 40s. It’s odd to use the past tense to describe a recent lover. Because, it just ended a few days ago. <br /><br />I was glad that it was him who ended it. Delighted even. I hate being “the one who left”. Yes. Even affairs have some moral restraints. Because we are already this bad we have to save grace from being holy. <br /><br />A holy lover by definition, is a person who gives all the trusts, the tenderness, the compassion, the understanding, the affection, and most importantly, the naivety of believing “one day it will happen for us”.<br /><br />He went away with guilt that he chose to leave me for another woman. He thought he had broken my heart. He was tainted and I became holy in this story of us. But in fact, not quite. <br /><br />D was not a nice-looking man. Not unpleasant but there was nothing striking about him. So what was the reason for me to be with him? It was because, very simply because, he had a similar chin and thin lips that resemble the smirk like my ex-lover, E.<br /><br />The best way to erase a face is to wipe it with another face. Therefore D existed in my life, for the reason he would never ever know, that he was, just a person who resumed a position in my unfinished dream.